11/25/2004 01:43:00 PM|W|P|Nicole|W|P|A young man named John received a parrot as a gift. The parrot had a badattitude and an even worse vocabulary. Every word out of the bird'smouth was rude, obnoxious and laced with profanity. John tried and triedto change the bird's attitude by consistently saying only polite words,playing soft music and anything else he could think of to "clean up" thebird's vocabulary. Finally, John was fed up and he yelled at the parrot.The parrot yelled back. John shook the parrot and the parrot got angrierand even ruder. John, in desperation, threw up his hands, grabbed thebird and put him in the freezer. For a few minutes the parrot squawkedand kicked and screamed. Then suddenly there was total quiet. Not apeep was heard for over a minute. Fearing that he'd hurt the parrot,John quickly opened the door to the freezer. The parrot calmly steppedout onto John's outstretched arms and said, "I believe I may haveoffended you with my rude language and actions. I'm sincerelyremorseful for my inappropriate transgressions and I fully intend to doeverything I can to correct my rude and unforgivable behavior." John wasstunned at the change in the bird's attitude. As he was about to ask theparrot what had made such a dramatic change in his behavior, the birdcontinued, "May I ask what the turkey did?" |W|P|110141958754564161|W|P|Happy Thanksgiving|W|P|nicanikole@gmail.com12/13/2004 10:27:00 AM|W|P| Ang|W|P|Now that you're home again....you need to UPDATE!!!11/24/2004 09:13:00 PM|W|P|Nicole|W|P|Well I ended up going home earlier than planned. For some reason I just got the urge to leave...So I did. Kind of nice being home...weird but nice. My room is familiar to me and I know it's mine and all but it seems so different. For one thing it's actually clean...but then again I did leave it that way. The walls are bare too, but I think what makes it the weirdest for me is the new bedspread. I took my bedding with me to school and the one that my mom has on the bed right now is formal, flowery, pink, and has little pink and blue heart throw pillows... *eye begins to twitch, gagging reflex kicks in, silently screams, MOM!* Really not me... Oh well not like I live here anyway. I'm still debating on whether or not to stay at school or come home over the summer... Ugh...No "Lost" this week. Sadness. I'll leave it at that cause I know u all don't care that I didn't get my weekly dose of that show. I'm addicted. Speaking of addictions Divine got me started on anime. Now I have yet another distraction from academia land. :-/ I called Jeff this morning...which is no big deal I guess but kind of hard for me. HAha yes laugh but it is for me. I mean we've talked on the phone before...I guess I should've mentioned that. (wait I have... Anyways) He called me when he got home Saturday night. Which completely caught me off guard, in a good way. I thought it was the sweetest thing. *grins* I know I'm stupid but I liked it. A funny thing (which has nothing to do with anything) is when he left to go home for break...He left an away message up. So he was on 24-7...Taunting me...LOL. He was always on and never there...Sheer torture. Luckily for me we had a few power outages and *smirks* his computer shutdown and didn't reboot. So my sanity was somewhat saved. OH OH and Angela I looooooooooooove you! Evidently she has been reading my journal...just not posting *cough* :-p Anyhow, i really appreciated what you sent me, im not good with words or expressing my feelings, but it really meant a lot to me. I love you so much! I was wondering why you suddenly asked for my address...and then that day asking me if i got anything in the mail. I must admit i was suspicious... Anyway I'm really fortunate to have a sis like you, i tell you more crap than anyone else, and feel comfortable doing so. Which is rare. And i just wanna say i LOVE you! And if you were here right now i'd hug the hell out of you. Which is probably what i'll do when you arrive tomorrow. ;) |W|P|110136538077452063|W|P|Home again home again...|W|P|nicanikole@gmail.com11/17/2004 03:40:00 PM|W|P|Nicole|W|P|This week has been full of mixed emotions... I was happy I "met" someone here at school on Thursday. I met Jeff thru the network, glad I did too. He's sweet and I like him a lot, but I'm hesitant to meet him for a myriad of reasons. I can't even put a finger on all of em. Most of em are idiotic fears that control me. I'm stupid like that. Anyway we've been talking a lot this past week, and I've grown to really like him. I wonder why he bothers with me. I just really don't quite understand why he likes me. I have problems, I'll be the first to admit that...I don't want to get hurt again, and I don't want to hurt him with my problems like I've done before. So I told him I didn't want to meet him yet, I kinda want to sort out my issues first, and if he sticks it out, I'll know he's serious in a way. I just don't want to drag him into my problems. It's not fair to him. Then on another note. This quarter has really gone down the tubes...I'm just so frustrated with myself, I feel incredibly stupid, and I feel like I really don't belong here. And the desire to just go home has been incredibly strong. I've gotten sick 3 times already. Three freakin times! I let myself get behind...and now I'm screwed. So I've been really overwhelmed...To the point of crying. And talking to Jeff about it kind of just made me cry more, and when I just didn't want to talk about it anymore and signed off, I hurt him and pushed him into a downward spiral, he was just trying to help. So then I felt even worse for awhile. And my roommate was home the whole time so I was trying to hide it as well. I did a pretty good job of hiding it. However, today my roommate said she had noticed me acting strangely last night, but she couldn't put her finger on it, she just attributed it to being sick. She's really sweet. As much as I've wished for someone just to be there...I've realized I don't let people. I guess it's just because I feel it's my problem not theirs and nobody really needs to get sucked into them. I'm so confused sometimes, I don't even understand myself, so how can anyone else? And to make things worse my Eng professor pulled me aside after class to talk to me today, I was in tears by the end of it of course...gah. I really don't like crying in front of people. She suggested I go to a counselor and get help, but I swore I'd never do that again. If I go back, my mom will have been right...I am screwed up. She's going to be so disappointed in me... |W|P|110068273235591466|W|P|Lot of stuff has happened since my last entry...|W|P|nicanikole@gmail.com11/17/2004 02:22:00 PM|W|P|Nicole|W|P|I can't believe I actually let him call me...the most nerve racking, heart thumping, suspensful, and awkward thing ever, but it was fun. I have never let anyone call me before...i was so freaked out... But i'd do it all again... |W|P|110073140567385798|W|P|OMG|W|P|nicanikole@gmail.com11/10/2004 07:22:00 AM|W|P|Nicole|W|P|OK so anyway i started talking (if you can call it that) with Jeremy again (a while back)...I'm not sure why, maybe cause i still care about him...but anyway after we started "talking" i was starting to regret it. Obviously he didn't want to talk to me any more. How is it that the one person who used to make you the happiest is the one who makes u feel the worst now? Maybe he didn't mean to, but he did. Anyway not his fault i probably shouldn't have IM'd him. But now...even tho talking to him brought some emotions back to the surface for awhile, i think it helped with the grande scheme of things. I think it just finally snapped in my brain hey forget about it. On a lighter and smellier note... There's something raunchy wafting out of the fridge...and my roommate and i are at a stalemate. She hasn't said a word, but I know she smells it too. What to do.....I don't particularly want to discover the source...whatever it may be...*shudders* To be continued...in say another month or whenever i put off school again and come back to update. |W|P|110010217362105683|W|P|HI...yah i still exist...|W|P|nicanikole@gmail.com